I so remember the excitement and wonder I felt, as a young child of five or six years, walking the five blocks to public school and seeing, really seeing, blades of grass, an ant or caterpillars (of which there were many), a stone which caught my eye, the shapes of leaves rustling in the trees, a crack in the cement sidewalk, the gravel between the sidewalk and the road. Each day was a new, anticipated experience that made me feel so incredibly alive. Being so much closer to ground than an adult, gave a magnified view, a more immediate perspective to nature. The old-fashioned perennial gardens right smack at my eye level were magic with their bleeding hearts, roses, peonies, and a multitude of other bright and beautiful blooms and fragrances.

I dawdled on my four daily journeys, to and fro’ in the morning and again after lunch, loving the experience of examining my world. In between the walks, having to sit quietly and still in the classroom was an impossibility for me. Filled with thoughts itching to be expressed and bubble forth, my chattiness resulted in reprimands. Then came the inevitable long minutes in the hall, waiting to see the principal and suffer the strap on my little hands. None of that deterred me. My thoughts, ideas and experiences persisted in being expressed.

The one punishment that gave me pause was the notation about my talkative nature in my report cards. A gentle admonishing from my parents resulted. I hated disappointing them.

Authority figures in school were another matter. Their opinions did not impact me as much as did Mom and Dad’s. My quiet rebellion at school continued into my post grad nursing program where I was always in trouble. I did try harder with teachers whom I liked and respected. But even as a young child, I tended not to respect anyone who did not like or respect me.

I don’t know where this ingrained belief system came from. Perhaps it was knowing my parents not only loved me, but trusted and respected me. Adults who did not live up to that mark in my eyes, experienced my talkative, waywardness, my only method of exerting some control over my own life.

I was an only child for the first eight years of my life with no peers to share my wonder of the world around me. Perhaps that influenced my desire to talk in school.

Whatever the reason, I remember with great affection, the magic of my childhood and the magic of my small, happy world. And such memories keep me feeling like me, despite the wrinkles and limitations of age.



RAILROAD LULLABY . Memoir . My Childhood .

ERNIE KINKAID with bowler hat, standing front. ONR yards
My Grandfather, ERNIE KING abt 1930, standing front of engine – in bowler hat & hand on hip.                                      Ontario Northland Railway (ONR) yards, North Bay, Ontario


abt 1950

I was born in North Bay, Ontario, “The Gateway to the North!” in 1943. North Bay has one spectacular feature – it is bordered by, not one, but two lakes. I always felt that geological fact made us special. Canoeing, swimming, boating, hiking, fishing, ice fishing and ice huts, skiing, snowmobiling, are all part of the lives of North Bay residents.

Trout Lake curves along the city’s eastern border of the small city. It is spring-fed, cold and deep, even reputed to be ‘bottomless’ but It is quite small – only about five miles long. My parents owned a cottage on it’s south shore. We had 100 feet of waterfront, with a large U-shaped dock, two boats and water skiis. Gatherings with family and friends was a constant in our lives. Now, some sixty years later, the city has surrounded the lake.

Lake Nipissing cradles North Bay all along its western boundary from the southernmost to the northern edge. Lake Nipissing is large, comparatively shallow and warm. It is part of the historic trail of the voyagers and it was home to the Nipissing tribe of First Nation people before the area was inhabited by white settlers.

Development of the area began along the ‘north bay’ of Lake Nipissing in the 1880’s(?) when trains encroached northward from southeastern Ontario. My great grand-father, John King, was one of the labourers who laid miles of train track, allowing the influx of settlers by rail.

There was an excitement to a Rail Road town – the coming & goings, the friendly rilvallry of 2 national railways, the Canadian Pacific (CPR) and the Canadian National (CNR), as well as the  Ontario Northland Railroad (ONR). Tracks of all three railroads intersected our city. We had railway lines going every which way and the soothing sounds of the trains a few streets from our home cold be faintly heard in the still of the night and lulled me to sleep.

Male ancestors on both my maternal and paternal family lines, worked on the railroad for several generations. Grandpa King, my Mom’s father (photo above), worked on the ONR. My Dad and my Grandpa Robertson both worked on the CPR. Several uncles on both sides of the family worked on all three railroads.

A boilermaker on the railroad.

Dad was a boilermaker who wore the protective iron mask for protection against welding sparks. The biggest bonus to being a Rail Road employee in the days before global restructuring and drastic cutbacks was having a ‘Pass’ that allowed you to travel on the railroads free of charge. Imagine the luxury.

These were happy, magical times with my father and mother. We lived, worked and loved in North Bay which, despite being ‘only’ 400 miles from Toronto, was an eight-hour train ride in the 1950’s. The train had to stop at every town and village between ‘The Bay’ and Toronto. Extended family lived south in Mimico, a suburb west of Toronto. Others in Chapleau, northeast of North Bay and in Montreal, Quebec.  Those trains connected us. My Robertson grandparents wintered in Vancouver, British Columbia and spent summers in Prince Edward Island. Grandpa’s railway pass allowed them to transverse the country every six months. Along the way, they stopped off in towns and cities in several provinces to visit family. I cherished those twice a year visits.

Overnight train trips were wondrous – the romance of train travel could be attributed to its excitement, glamour, and the relaxation it provided once you were settled in.

A Red Cap (Porter) on a CPR train

A Red Cap (Porter) on a CPR train

White men were engineers and linemen involved switching, driving, and repairing the trains. But, in the forties and early fifties, Red Caps on the Ontario trains were nearly always black men. The dignified and neatly uniformed Red Caps greeted you and helped you on the train.

The last chore before the train rolled away from the station
The last chore before the train rolled away from the station – lifting the portable step on board.

The name, ‘Red Caps’, came from the porters’ uniforms – sturdy black wool garments with gold buttons and on their heads, bright red caps with round peaks over their eyes. Passengers benefited from the warmth, nurturing and humour of the Red Caps. Books could be written (and undoubtedly have) on the prejudices that created that system, and of the good-natured, hard-working black men in their roles of servitude. Every Red Cap I met over the years, conducted himself with a quiet, calm and competent dignity. It was palpable. They loved their jobs, respected themselves and the passengers, and were respected in turn. It is not an overstatement to suggest there was a pride, a nobility to their demeanour.

A walk through and between the train cars to the dining car was exhilarating. Opening a door to venture to the next car meant crossing a connecting bridge of iron slats that moved zig zag under your feet. Added to that, the train itself was swaying back and forth, and when you looked down, you could see the ground rushing between the slats under you.

The Dining Car was a visit to another world. It was a formal world of starched, white, impeccably ironed table cloths and napkins; heavy, silver, flat wear; white china and glass goblets. A Red Cap with a folded napkin over his arm, there to take your oder and serve you. It was a glamorous other world for a child.

dining car 09dining-car

The sleeping cars were magic to me. In the daytime they resembled ordinary passenger cars with seating compartments. But while you were at dinner in the Dining Car, the Red Caps came, converted the facing seats into a bed. Then he would lower the upper berths with their concave metal bottoms that formed a ceilings over the lower berths. When all the sleeping compartments folded down, the beds made, the sleeping cars were comprised of long, narrow aisles bordered on either side by heavy, dark grey curtains, ceiling to floor. They were sturdy, unbendable, private almost like folding doors.

Preparing a lower berth for the night. Sheets were folded meticulously.
Preparing a lower berth for the night. Sheets were folded meticulously.

Bedding was the best quality – the whitest white, meticulously ironed cotton sheets. The pillows were plump and inviting. The entire scene was picture perfect.

Seats became the lower 'berth'. A pull-down compartment created the upper berth.
Seats became the lower ‘berth’.  A pull-down compartment created the upper berth.

Another duty of the night Red Cap was to shine passengers’ shoes. Before snuggling into bed, you placed your leather shoes or boots on the floor in the aisle just outside your curtain. In the morning, they were as shiny as a brand new Canadian loony.

Bedtime in a berth was a wondrous adventure – the soothing, rhythmic, clicketey-clack of the huge steel train wheels rolling on the steel tracks; the sleep-inducing swaying of the train car; and the womb-like comfort of the so-clean, so-ironed bedding. As a young girl, I loved to raise the heavy window curtain a few inches off the window sill so I could peer out. I loved watching the shadows and occasional twinkling lights of towns passing by. Happy memories to last a lifetime.

My imagination soared.